November 27, 2011

Heros and Demons

The trouble with having a bunch of diverse interests is that they all compete for equal time.  Which is maybe ok when there's some time to spare but, as I often lament, it's not the case for me.  My interest in many different things often means having to neglect some of those things in favour of others.  For example, I've always been fascinated by history and myth.  Having rediscovered Joseph Campbell a few weeks ago, suddenly I feel an irrisistible urge to delve headlong into a re-examination of world mythology, symbolism, and Jungian archetypes and, if that's not enough, of esoteric alchemy. There's such a wealth of material out there on this I could make it a life-long study but, instead, I'm trying to grasp these concepts in a few hours per week.

And that means I'm not, at least for a while, devoting time to printmaking as regularly as before.  I suspect I'm turning to a study of more transcendent ideas because I need something to take me away from the concerns with my parents and their dementia issues.  As much as I find solace in my creative work, I have a hard time not letting the worries intrude while I carve or draw and I really don't want my prints to become vehicles for my frustration. 

I spent four Wednesday nights in a workshop for the caregivers of people with dementia and I will say the following two things only about it here. Number one: yes, guilt and grief are my new middle names and, number two, if you are someone who also looks after someone with dementia, get in touch with the Alzheimer's Society.  They are an invaluable resourse.  In spite of this, I recognize that a support group can only take me so far.  I need to find something more to fill up my brain with and thus my escape into studies of the anima mundi.

Anyway, I have added two new colours to the Crystal Crag print and I'm very happy with the progress so far.  

Two more to go now and I'm really hoping to get them in before I have to start thinking about Chrismas baking.  Again!!! 


Libby Fife said...

The print is shaping up nicely. Keep going!

I don't have the types of stresses that you are describing but I can say from experiences past that multiple pressures or one big pressure causes me to be scattered. Not knowing where to start is one symptom of that so I find myself doing lots of little things in a superficial way or even nothing at all.

Glad you found the support group. My husband's friend's wife has dementia and he has benefited from attending this very type of group.

Katka said...

Hi Libby,
I think my biggest fear is succumbing to not doing anything at all. Sometimes it`s much too tempting to just escape into a book and not have to think about my own reality. Sometimes I give in to that. But then I always guilt myself back to doing something creative because ultimately I know it`s the lifeline....